I just read my girl's latest entry. I WAS SHOCK AH!

She was suffering from cramps. Yes. The monthly cramp. And before I typed this entry, I was complaining to Andy how much my cramp hurts that I couldn't sleep last night.

Best friends get cramps together isit? LOL. But it not gonna affect me going to Sentosa tomorrow. HEHE!

Today is stocktake day. Woot. Gonna work till late. It's payday too. Gonna get a few things later.

- Mascara
- Eyeliner
- Eye shadow
- Make up remover
- Transfer Lola money
- Pay bills
- Draw money!

Sign. I need to save.



FIVE
Closer To Me

Constantly girl you're on my mind,
and girl I think about you all of the time
and even though words are hard to say,
girl I miss you, never thought I'd feel this way.

If you keep on taking, my heart you'll be breaking so why do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling it's you I believe in baby can't you see that I need you?

You know that it's true.
Every time I see your face I miss you baby
You know that it's you.
I want to let you know you're driving me crazy.
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me.
You know that it's true.
Every now and then I want to call you baby.
You know that it's you.
I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady.
Oh yeah.
Life ain't anything alone can't you see you're an angel in my eyes,
everyday you're closer to me.

Nobody's there when I call your name,
and nights are cold girl without your flame.
But if I could girl I'd make you see.
That I'm sorry, and that I need you here with me.

Every day reminisce with the past
of a love that we thought would last.
How we used to be when it was you and me.
How did it all disappear so fast.
There are days that I can't forget
there are things that I now regret.
I was there for you when you were there for me, and I was thinkin' we were set.
Every night when I'm laying in my bed
I hear your voice going round in my head, think of all the things I could have done and all those things I could have said.
I really will make it up to you
I know now what I've got to do,
It took time but now I've realised how much I'm missing you.



Andy has been really nice to be treating me dinners and lunches for the past few days. In order to be a nice girl, I've decided to treat him to movie [Death Note]. Read that comic before. Shouldnt be too bad.

Winnie, Deyuan, CK saw Andy with me. Boo la. Rumors bound to spread. But I can't deny that they might be chances that Andy's interested in me. Which guy will "accidentally" pop by your work place, offering to accompany you for breaks, "accidentally" pop by your work place after work and offer to send you home? Which guy will buy you series of NANA? Which guy come down to your workplace to help you handcarry 1 big bag and 2 small bags of stock? Which guy takes you to East Coast planning to go italian restaurant to eat dinner by the beach?

But, I did drop him hints here and there that I...aint interested to be in a r/s?. And he is known for his scandalous past. WHAHA!

It's gonna be nua-at-home day tomorrow! Yippies! Zits are erupting all over my faces. damnit.



WESTLIFE
"Miss You"

I can't sleep,
I just can't breathe,
when your shadow is all over me baby,
Don't wanna be,
a fool in your eyes,
Cause what we had was built on lies,

And when our love seems to fade away,
Listen to me hear what I say,

I don't wanna feel,
the way that i do,
I just wanna be,
right here with you,
I don't wanna see,
see us apart,
I just wanna say it straight from my heart,
I miss you.....

What would it take,
for you to see,
To make you understand,
that i'll always believe,
You and i,
can make it through,
And i still know,
I can't get over you,

Cause when our love seems to fade away,
Listen to me hear what I say,

I don't wanna feel,
the way that I do,
I just wanna be,
right here with you,
I don't wanna see,
see us apart,(see us apart)
I just wanna say it straight from my heart,
oh baby i miss you,
i do...

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This song accompanied thru my lonely nights, yet it always ended up in a tearful, shallow, full of nightmares sleep.



Here are ths pics for Cindy's birthday!

Emo enough?
Emo? Me love this pic

Sneaking around to see Weili bringing Cindy up. Weiyang is way so excited! LOL!

Post-celebration chilling at Cosy bay with beer, canned wine and of cos fags. Found out about some personal stuffs. Quite taken aback though.

Argh. Now Im having sorethroat. Which is bad. Retail Therapy Badly Needed.



Celebratin Cindy's 20th Birthday was hella fun at Marina South Pier. Took emo shots, had the cake ready and got ready to surprise her! We kept laughin and laughin to light the candle with the wind blowing from the sea. And Cindy was so unaware that there are stifling laughters and sound of the lighter right behind her. Weiyang is just so excited. Hilarious. Headed to Cosy Bay to chill. Played "Who What Huh." Oh my god. Girl lost. HAha! It was really funny all the way. Updates of picture tomorrow! Well, all in all....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINDY!!!!



How old were you when you had your first ...

Had your first real kiss:
17 Feb of that year

Fell in love:
15. I have already let it go

Lost someone close to you:
Sec 1 or 2, but we got each other back. =)

Tried alcohol:
If say beer, kindergarden. Hard liqour, 15 i guess

Got your heart broken:
16

Got arrested:
No way.

Smoked a cigarette:
14 or 15. cant remember for this.

Broken a bone:
Nah.

Got cheated on:
So many times I cant remember.

Rode the bus:
When I was damn young la. Duh. Who can remember this kinda thing.

Went to a concert:
When I was 15 or 16. F4's 1st concert in SIngapore. Watched it with Xingyi.

Dyed your hair:
16

Got a car:
21. Hopefully when Im twenty-one, I can own my own car

Got your own cell phone:
15 years old.

a myspace:
WTF is this? I only know blogspot,livejournal,diaryland,xanga.

Snuck out of the house:
17 =P

Got your own digital camera:
Last year.

First time u got drunk?:
zZz. Just recently.



I tried to contain my emotions just now while talkin to weili, but I failed to do so. The previous entry was just an excuse to be angry, to be upset, to cry. I don't want the hatred in me to grow. But one thing for sure, he will be someone I will never smile to again.



You told me you can't commit. So wtf are you doing now?

So I presume, that you used commitment as an excuse. I bet you weren't even serious in the first place. Yet Im so naive to believe all your words. You lied. You cheated. You played me like a fool. To think, I put it all down for you. I think Im gonna hate you. Don't ever ever let me see you.

Yes, thank god you found her. Blessings given. All the best. =)

I seriously don't know how should I be feeling.

I LOST IT ALL.






Uh-ho. I think mum found my Blue Limonya in my wardrobe. LMAO. 5% alcohol. It's the leftover I had for my Multicamera TV Production assignment. I swear it is. I din really wanna drink it anyway. What's Blue Limonya compared to Graveyard? o.O!!! Am gonna get a earful from her I guess.

I think mum's just worried that I will take over my dad. Well, I know in terms of look, I inherited my dad's genes and our characteristics are QUITE similar. But I do have some other my mum's genes don't I. After what happened, I swore to myself, history will never ever repeat. In another words, I might not even get married. Heh. But hey, I just wanna do what I want at this age. Because as what C.K said, "ren sheng duan duan ji shi nian, jiu guo de xiao sa yi dian".

And somehow, I feel that I age alittle faster than people of my age? I don't know why. I just feel this way. Maybe I will just die a few days later. Who knows? Just send me lotsa sunflowers and play my r&b during my wake aight? =D Kidding.

I just typed a whole lot, but decided to keep it to myself. I JUST WANNA SAY OH MY GOD BIRDIE U PIERCED YOU TONGUE LIKE WHAT THE HELL WHY ON EARTH YOU DID THAT YOU CANT TALK PROPERLY NOW OMGOMGOMG!. It's cool neeway. Haha.

Just made the decision to pierce a 2nd naval piercing on my birthday itself. ^^

it's been a long time since I felt pretty. =)



Mama is back from Thai! She came back with 3 pairs of heels, 2 pairs of flat. I love the flats! Damn pretty and comfy. She came back with 12 bottles of nail polish at $5 Sing dollars!! All the pretty reds! Me love! She came back with loop earrings! Oh my god! Totally dig it. and she came back with 12 bottles of the oil for headaches. Loves loves. No more havoc since mama is back. Shall revert back to the boring life of working and rotting.

Anyway, Smelly Andy came down to Parkway today. So he accompanied me for my break. Since he's havin 3 days off. So free and bored right? Tomorrow go down Bugis and pass me NANA k? =D. Back to topic, since it's his 24th birthday, I secretly went to Breadtalk to buy 2 pieces of cake and requested a candle. Went up to Pastamania and treated him. Blew the cake and happy eating!
SMELLY ANDY! Heard alot of his scandalous past. HOR! ANDY U SURE DIE! Step on me somemore la. Say me short somemore la. Idiot.



Woke up to find my head spinning.
Felt that all my limbs were detached.
My spine's hurting.
Drag myself out of bed.

It sucks to wake up early just to do housework. The weather is invitin me back to bed. It's time to find ways to get to sleep and start eating.



Sigh. Yesterday night's clubbin plann was all screwed. Went to a unknown pub to have free flow of drinks. Damn, the music's good. Lovely waitresses, waiters and amazing fire stunts. So it's vodka lime, whiskey water, whiskey coke,vodka sprite and tequila shots. Drink, drank, drunk, and there goes the sane Hueywen. Stumbled and vomited my way to MOS after that. Why?!?! I guess it's due to empty stomach (had half of one meal for the whole day, which is Long John Silver), pre-emo shits, and idiotic MOS bouncers. If only Freddie was there. Sigh.

Laura's ID was being confiscated. Had to give them my real name and thumbprint. She will have to go down to MOS to collect it personally. I feel extremely bad about it. I think Laura wasn't too please to hear that. Sorry Lola.

Sat outside MOS crying and vomiting. First time in my 18 years of life, I vomited so much. I think I vomited pure vodka plus bits of french fries. So bird, bao, ruizhen and isabel hollered Benny to come over to send me home. The funny thing is, why they cant send me home but have Benny over instead? But anyway, I remembered them calling Jason too, and erm Laura.

Once Benny reached they got me in the cab and Im on my way home. It's so embarrassing can. I haven seen Benny for more then one and a half year, and once he came to see me in such pissed drunk state. Oh my god. I didn't even have a good look at him can. Am so lookin forward to see him k. So he watched me puking, sleeping, stinkin, and stumbling. How paiseh can I get you say. I even point at my puke and said: "oh. Fries inside." I know it's lame. But Im just tryin to say that Im fine. -.- Obviously Im not THAT fine.

So reached home, died on my bed. But cant get to sleep. So got Jason over to accompany me.

I feel uber guilty of spoiling Benny's, Bird's, Bao's, RuiZhen's and Isabel's night. I feel uber bad to have Lola ID confiscated. Sigh. If I had gone to DXO, everything might not turn out this way. Will contact Freddie to ensure that nth's gonna happen to Lola ID and me. So now I owe Benny and Lola a meal. I think I should.

Well, thats all the drama from yesterday. Never ever ever give me whiskey. NNH!

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As for today, met up with Girl and Smelly Andy from IP Zone. Lost my appetite for the whole day. Went retail therapy with girl. Told her everything. She laughed her ass off. Played pool. Andy is smelly la. Always bully me. But his Burberry Perfume is damn nice.


So me and girl were joking on yesterday's drama. We concluded that benny will not initiate a chat with me over msn anymore because I scare him last night. Yea. So we said, "Tonight see whether Benny got nudge u or talk to u over msn or not." As predicted, he did not. WHAHA. Die la. I scare people. How. =( Im nice ok.

Edited: HAHA okae. Benny did nudge me. Hey Benny no offence. It's a joke. You are nice Im nice Everybody's nice. WHAHA



Weee. Am going to club later. MOS or ZOUK?! Still cant decide. Cos of many reasons. Argh. Most prolly MOS ba. Lalalala! Now, the main thing is to wait for my bro to sleep. hiak hiak hiak.

Exam results are out. Thank god I flunk nth, but shit it cos my GPA sure dropped like shit.




So here are the pictures! Open your eyes! The day started off with me, letting her dad fetch me over to the chalet to help my girl with the startup and stuff. But I guess Im aint of any help. So there you go.

Prepared the stuffs and we did our pre-celebration photowhoring. Blasted the usual r&bs and the chalet's good. 2 single beds and lotsa mattress. Haha. Then, girl's guest starts to arrive. So here are the pictures!

And oh. I have to say something. My mum and bro took the wrong bus and ended up at Seletar there. Oh my god ah! Anyway, the buffet's good. But the drink taste like cough syrup. So we ate, talk and crap. Just like the usual birthday chalet. Had the cake out. And darren's so funny. The way of saying "cheese" is "XI GUA HAO BU HAO CHI!", "XI GUA XIANG BU XIANG!", "XI GUA TIAN BU TIAN!" New way of saying "cheese!" Oh my god. So funny! Took lotsa photos.

So, weili, cindy stayed till her parents left, and we saboed the birthday girl!Glitter + water, wine, vodka lime and cake. Girl went crazy and start hugging any1. So Im always the one kanna one. =(. LOL It was fun neeway. After that cleared up, bathed with girl and start our boozing and prezzie opening. Cher, bird and Bao bought her a 2 litre Dry Gin, which is equivalent to 2 litre of kerosene. Plus wine and stuff. Whoa! Got crazy - danced, played games and Girl died-ed.

She started doing stupid things. haha. Like banging her head on her table instead of resting her head. Wanting to find her boy and ended up butt on floor after 4 steps. Smoking even before the cig was lighted. Don't want to rest but keep complainin her head's aching. Crying out loud because she's so touched. Wanted to watch sunrise in her wasted condition. Saying things like: "Why u all not wasted? How many cups I drank?!?!" Why you all not drunk!!!." Tsk! haha. So I got her boy to carry her up. Left them alone. Well, 1 guy 1 girl, what can they do? Hanky-panky? I don't know. It's up to your own imagination. HAHA! While, cher, bao, bird and me continued our boozing.

Bao and Cher went to sleep. Tried to sleep. But cant. So I ended up talking to bird whole night downstairs. At 7+ am. Me and bird went to wake them up. HAHAH! It was hella funny.

Me: Everyone wake up!

*me and bird started talking loudly*

Me(to girl): Still say wanna watch sunrise. Now sleep like pig.

Girl: never wake me up!

Me: Ya wake u up now. and watch sunrise lor. *points at the ceiling lighting*

HAHAHA Then, we went to Mac and have breakfast!!! Then went back to sleep at 10am and woke up at 1pm. The rest left, me and girl went to tan.

Girl's known for her lagging, started puking in the morning only. haha. Then at around 4 pm I left for home sweet home.

There are still tons of pictures with the other girls. Too many to display. So, haha. Yeps thats all.

It was really fun. Lotsa people attended, photowhoring, lesbianism kissing, boozing and fagging. Getting girl to cry. Sabotaging! haha. Oh my god. Well, whatever it is, Im glad that girl enjoyed herself. Happy 18th Birthday!!

I received news yesterday that Dexter went for an operation. Till now, I am in a dilemma. To visit him or not, I wish to visit him, to make up for the pain I have caused him. Im not sure, but somehow I got this feeling that Im being blamed for his operation. A sense of guilt I guess. On the other hand, my advisor Benny *LOL* said that better don't visit to reduce in giving him false hope.

Well well, my ultimate decision: Wait till Thursday, the day Im not working, if he's still in hospital (hopefully not), I will visit him and bringhim chicken essence, if not, den forget it. =) So this is it.

Mummy went to Thailand already. Am afraid that something will happen. Im just so pessismistic. Hopefully mummy will relax and enjoy herself to the max! Later will be movie with Jason.



I am back from chalet already!!! It was a fun, hilarious, wasted (not for me! haha) night. Had only less den 3 hours of sleep and nope, I am not sleepy at all. Will update everyone with the photos! Await!

If I hadnt been so stubborn, I could have gotten my braces now. =(



Ooo lala. Am all prepared for girl's chalet. Weee.. gonna have lotsa fun fun fun!!!! Am looking towards wednesday. Cos clubbing! With my girls! Might get to see benny and jason!! Wee! Happy happy laaa~



OKay! Tomorrow's my girl's day. Am so excited!!! I think Im even more excited than her. Can't wait for tomorrow!!! But, I am not done with her prezzie yet. Not yet paint my nails. Oh noooo!

Gonna see all my girlsssss... and clubbing on wednesday would be MOS what say you babes?!?!?!



On the 8th of September, Chris Toh Kang Yee, went to become a real man. HAHA. No la, he went to fight for our country! NS! Become a botak boy already. Was talkin to him thru msn when I suddenly realised I missed him! As in friend-friend kinda miss. He's a very good crapping partner, advisor, listener. We made a pact with each other, he will treat my Crystal Jade for my birthday, and when he POP I will treat him too! ^^Well, wish him all the best in NS, Clementi Camp. WHAHA.



Whoa! Suffering from sleepless night again. Feelin very groggy but I cant go back to sleep. Going to work later. I still don't understand why can't a 23 year old act his age and start thinkin for himself. Argh. I know he just wanted to help, but don't he know he is being stupid only? ARGH. See, I am the bad person again. =(



I don't know why, but whenever I thought of working, it lifted my spirit. Maybe due to the reason that I have something to do and not idle away, maybe because I get to see my very nice colleagues. Maybe serving customer makes me happy. Prolly also because I get to meet up with xiaoming often.

Maybe it's an excuse to get out of the house, stop myself from all the depressing thoughts, meet more people, search for something to make me happier. Sigh. At least Im workin a afternoon shift at Marina Square tomorrow.

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Told mama the story of one past relationship. Mama threw me one sentence: If he doesn't take the initiative to talk to you, it means that he is not interested.

Sigh. Isit like that? =( Maybe it's time to give up the wishful thinkin.



I am going to leave my precious blog, of 2 years alone. I guess it will be better this way. Too much memories, too much pain, or maybe even too much happiness. 546 entries, will be left there to serve as an archive. Here I am, doing a new start, hoping my life will be a tad more easier. No links will be put up because I realise it will cause people more trouble.

Huey Wen aka Ah boon aka Ali
Temasek Polytechnic/Parttimer
08/11/1988
Loves being single ^^

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