Tuesday, August 26, 2008
You know, Subaru WRX is a pretty powerful rally car. You can feel the power when it starts, when it brakes. In short, it is a car that packs a punch when it comes to speed. When you're driving a manual WRX, you change the gear, you can hear the 'ppssshhhh' sound. Very orgasmic sound. I like.
However, when you just had a fulfilling lunch, you are seated in the passenger seat, you hear the 'ppsshh' sound, then 140km/h on ECP all the way to Simei, you risk yourself puking out your fulfilling lunch.
Very. very. bumpy.
Labels: Subaru WRX
express yourself {10:27 PM}
Monday, August 04, 2008
It's been a month of work. I would say I don't exactly dread work or love work. It's just a neutral feeling. I know initially I was very positive but as you learn more and you screw up more. Although it is just minor hiccups, I still feel incompetent.
Plus my super lousy memory, I can't seems to remember things especially details very well. This has been my problem. Is it because I did not make the effort or just plain lazy/careless or I really have bad memory for details? I've tried to combat this problem of mine by jotting down on notepads. Yes it did help but not all the time. I still forget what people say. Well, at least I made the first step to change myself for the better right???
Although I have nice colleagues, but I am afraid. Afraid of how they are going to judge me when it is only my 2nd month of work. Today, there's someone who made a comment that offended me. She was smiling but her tone was sarcastic. I
hate hate hate it when people judge me within such a short period of time. You better be more careful girl. Because what goes around comes around. I was pissed and fucking irritated by her today. You might not have done it intentionally but the problem here is, you offended me. I will prove you wrong $£%*^. Come to think of it, it's nothing major. Just that I feel insulted.
Who knows, who is talking behind my back trying to ruin me. And who knows, anyone of you from my company might be reading this.
Or maybe I am just being paranoid. Have I taken enough initiative? Have I done my work up to other people's expectation.
Whatever it is, my first show in October, I am gonna do it well. I will prove to everyone I am capable to doing what you guys want me to do.
Even Fiona said my shoulder is so stiff with many knots when I went for facial last Saturday.
So many other things to be worrying about. Family, friends work and blahblah.
Will I adapt to my current life? Will I take this transition well enough? Will I be able to handle myself
physically and
emotionally? It's all a big question mark.
Now, I think I need a glass of chilled champagne (Moet & Chandon pretty pleaseeeee) to calm my nerves and play Sudoku to make myself tired so I can fall asleep later.
Labels: insecurities, Rants, Work
express yourself {10:30 PM}
