Monday, March 31, 2008
The boy came over to my house for dinner in the evening. Mum had a talk with him. It wasn't those fierce talk that you would have thought of. But just talk that will allow boy to know more about us.
I wasn't there but boy told me everything. The emotions in me were anger with a tint of hatred and happiness/relief. I do not know exactly what I was exactly feeling, tears just kept rolling. Tears of anger? Tears of relief? Tears of gratefulness? I would say it is a mix.
Boy was great. He brought me to the playground to cheer me up. He did his best to stay neutral during the talk and defend me for some stuff. He was wonderful.
Mum, I know its hard on you. Its hard on me too because I am now going through a major transition in my life. I hope you can understand. The reason why I took up my full-time job was kinda like a long term investment. Trust me mum, I will get a degree. Its just that time isn't right.
My boss was right. He said, " Working full-time and studying part-time is better. Maybe difficult but you get the best of both world. Companies do not look at only degree now. Compare:
- 4 years of working experience + degree
- 4 years working experence
- A degree cert
Who do you think will get the job?"
It makes perfect sense. And thats what I am gonna do - work and study. Anyway, I've been through it. Why I can't challenge myself again?
Guess it's time to sit down with my mum and have a talk.
Labels: Emotions
express yourself {12:52 AM}
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Marrying Buddha by Wei Hui (It is not any buddha book FYI. It is a semi-biography novel. hehe)
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Every form of suffering in the world derives from ignorance, to love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy is then to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from to much happiness.
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In order to free oneself from ignorance one must developed the true view, meditation, action and compassion - and compassion is the very foundation of true view, meditation and action. Be compassionate to wards others and be compassionate towards oneself because a person who doesn't know how to love him or herself cannot know how to love other people,
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No matter how big or soft or warm your bed is, you still have to get out of it.
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Free from desire, you realize the mystery. Caught in desire, you see only the manifestations.
express yourself {11:06 PM}
Stayed at home the whole damn day to clean up my wardrobe and room. It feels a little more spacious now. Had wanted to go out to have coffee with some of my long-time-no-see colleagues but I think mum's unhappy with me plus I am feeling a little unwell so, here am I.
The dry cough I am having now is irritating. I coughed and coughed till I run out of breath and gag.
*cough cough cough cough cough cough*
'scuse me, it's another bout of non-stop coughing again.
In a week time I will be in Sawadeeka land. With BF's new handphone, I will make sure I'll put it into good use. 8 gig lehhhh! Should be enough to hold all photos.
I think i slept too much today. Headache.
Labels: Rants
express yourself {7:36 PM}
Sunday, March 23, 2008
St James music is awesome but the crowd is extremely weird. A little bit too weird for me to take.
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I guess everyone is flawed. We must learn how to:
- embrace reality and facts rather than denying truth.
- spontaneous.
- nterested in solving problems which may include personal problems or the emotional conflicts of others.
- accepting of themselves and others and lack prejudice.
No point going into a state of depression. It will only bring you further from what you have now.
express yourself {8:04 PM}
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Today, I went to Estee Lauder's private sale at Swissotel. My lord! It was wonderful!!!
Met up with GF in the morning. We thought we were early, but other people were earlier. The queue was already snaking. We waited in the queue for about 1 hour before we went in and queue again for another half an hour. WE WERE SO EXCITED!
We even came up with a strategy, chiong to M.A.C cos it is the counter nearest to entrance and M.A.C is the main reason why we were there. So, we chiong inside, grab everything we see and like, proceed to Estee Lauder, Origins and finally, Clinique.
Whether we were getting it we did not care, we just take whatever that caught our eyes and choose later at one tiny corner.
Despite us grabbing everything in sight, we managed to practice self-control, eliminating some very pretty but useless items like the M.A.C glitter eyeliner. We slowly went through some rational thinking and managed to cut down but $200++ to less than $150.
Honestly, both of us were very proud of ourselves. My bill came up to exactly $120 and GF's $4 less. No heart pain no regrets. We just love everything that we bought.
And so, below are my loots!
On the left are all my M.A.C products.
Top left eye shadow in glitterish maroon. Beautiful color it is! $8. A pity it is a palette refil, but hell, it is only $8!
Next to it is my press powder. $20, just nice, my powder is finishing so this is a must get!
Below the eye palette refill, is the GlitterShimmer cream eye highlight. $9. I am anal when it comes to eye highlight, it must be cream form! The one I am currently using is from Missha and it cost 90cents more. Moreover, GlitterShimmer comes in a rather big bottle and there is a pump for you to pump the cream out. Totally no hassle! I am sure it will last me very long.
Next to GlitterShimmer is a lipgloss in sheer nude color. Very pretty! $12! But it's kinda drying on my lips. But anyway, I bought it because I do not have anymore lipgloss.
The white box with silver swirls, is a 8 colour eyeshadow palette. Smoky series I think. $40! BLOODY CHEAP! Reason, I bought it because my black and grey eyeshadow is finishing too! It includes cream colour, shimmery brown, grey, white and etc. I actually wanted to buy another palette because I love the gold color so much but in the end, I did not because it brainless to buy the whole palette just for the gold colour.
On the right side, is my Estee Lauder loots!
On top is my bronzer which my GF bought 1 too. My blusher's finishing soon also! So it is a need. For $20, I do not see a reason why I should not get it since I need it.
Below it is a 2-way lip colour for $12. one side's lipstick in nude pink and the other side is clear gloss. I bought it because I love love love love the colour and it is only $12. And again, I do not see any other reason why I shouldn't get it.
I think the cost I mentioned doesn't add up to $120 but never mind, around there.
In the background is the lovely Naraya handbag GF bought from Thailand for me! Love it!
There were many other good stuffs available at the sales I heard, but it was all snatched by people with yellow ticket and they are usually staffs of the company. GF's friend bought $401 worth of don't know what man. LOL!
I love private sales and thanks GF for allowing me to accompany you to such sales!
Oh yes, I went to have a flu jab in the morning and now I am down with a slight fever. Ending of this post with my picture! A recent me! Heh!
Labels: Pivate sales
express yourself {12:19 AM}
Monday, March 10, 2008
Bf bought me Burberry Weekend!! And He got himself CK Crave! All my favorite smell! Loves to my boy!
Xiaoling's birthday celebration at Zouk was awesome 'cept that some stuff pissed me off. Nonetheless, Happy Birthday my dear!!!! You've got cakes from Swensens, wonderful gifts from your lovely friends and the loudest birthday song at Velvet. Aren't you happy!? haha! You know I love you Xiao ling! And best part is, bf actually went clubbing with me! Gasp! haha! Unbelievable.
Gf is back from her Thai trip! I miss her so much! Cant wait to meet up with her. And she officially got her dream job. Congrats darling!!! I love you too!!
Interview tomorrow. Got to catch some sleep. Ta!
Labels: Rants
express yourself {12:14 AM}
Monday, March 03, 2008
After so long! I am back!
My last exam in Poly life ended on the 27th Feb. It was rest and work after mugging. Went to JB on the 28th with mummy. Was left in City Square for a good 3 hours. After 3 cups of coffee, mummy came back with her stuff to settle her Maybank issue. It was then, I realised the JI terrorist was on loose. What an experience.
Had class bbq on the 29th. Certain people pissed me off on that day. I was fuming actually. Then againe, come to think of it, these people never understand because they are insensitive and have never been in my situation before.
Before I find a proper job, I am going to party and slack my ass off for one month before I fly off to Bangkok. Woooooo!
I am officially school-less and jobless. Very sad hor.
Some random pictures update.
The lazy cat downstairs my house.
The Bonia bag I fell in love with. Very vintage!!! The colour is abit lighter then picture. It belongs to Karmen, the girl who's holding it.
Me me me! With a head scarf I bought! Lovin' it!!!!
Elder brother, me, younger brother at Genting.
Labels: random
express yourself {12:56 AM}
The lazy cat downstairs my house.
The Bonia bag I fell in love with. Very vintage!!! The colour is abit lighter then picture. It belongs to Karmen, the girl who's holding it.
Elder brother, me, younger brother at Genting.