I am pretty zonk out. Ever since Friday, I have been running to and fro, between my new house, furniture shops and back to my new house. It is confirmed that I will be moving at the end of the month. I am rather happy with the new house. It’s big and spacious. Just hope that the furniture doesn’t cram the space up.

I’ve been emotionally unstable for the past few days too. Tearing out of the sudden is no good. A lot of thoughts had been going through my mind incessantly – My father, my mother, my brothers, my boyfriend and me. At some point of time I think I have some psychological problems.

I don’t see where I am going to. I wish I can just drop dead on the spot. Monetary issues, educational issues, relational issues. It’s all bugging me. It seems that I have taken the responsibility to take care of the family. Both my brothers do not give a hoot to what’s happening. I mean I know they do in their mind, but they are not taking actions. Just by thinking it doesn’t help. My mum has been frustrated and that leads to nagging. Yes I understand it all. But I do have my limit too. But won’t my bro just extend some help?

Aiya, whatever it is la. Anyway, I have decided to go back to Ebase and work during weekends. The money earned will be saved. So during my 4 months I might be able to save near $1k. Not a BIG amount. But good enough.

Tiring, yes, but I guess that will diminish my shoppin urges and I used the time to earn money rather than spending it. On the other hand, I will have no time for everyone else.

Sigh. Life is so contradicting.

Unhappiness where's when I was young,

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